intersesting, fun and depressing...those words describe my day

It was another long day at work.....another day of busting my ass. I havent worked a friday in a long time and forgotten how god damn busy it gets, and how many lil fuckin jits that try so hard to act older than they really are show up. Yet they have no idea. But I guess thats normal for kids around that age to act like that. It makes me angry tho. But it is not my life, MY LIFE and the lives of the ones I care about are the only ones I should be lookin after. But its in my face every weekend. Girls no older than 14 hookin up with scum bags that are like 20. It makes me sick....sick that the ones that are older take advantage of the ones that admire us. "The older generation" . We know the real world, is it us...the older guys that are just as guilty as the young girls that throw themselves at us? Is it that they want to escape the real world? or are they truly that dark and cold inside that they just want a "young peice of ass"? Humanity...it can sicken me to the point i just want to lash out. But it is not my bussiness to stop humanity....after all....we are the "Home of the Free"...right? This is what upset me today. I've been workin at Kabooms for 3 years now....3 FUCKIN YEARS. I watched sum of these girls grow up and go from innocence to....what they are now. Trying so hard to rush through life, and experience things they are trully not ready for. I won't lie...there are girls that, of course younger than myself that try and throw themselves at me or hit on me. It just makes me so angry inside...not flattered....far from that. Thats what my friend said I should take it as. I was like..WHAT? Does age trully bring corruption? Is it true that the older you grow the colder you grow? I don't want that to be the case. For anyone. When these stupid girls that everyone calls hoes (cause they do act like it) come up to me, I stray from the topic at hand,which is her tryin to put the moves on me and I ask her...."I'm 18 years old...your like what? 14...15? Why do you do this to yourself? Your lucky I'm not sum fuckin child molester that would take advantage of u". I guess I'd go into sum lecture, sum seem to actually think about it...a sign that they feel some what guilty about some of the things they've done or do. And others just give me the big "whatever". Its not my job to save lives or teach them lessons they will unfortuntly learn on there own if they keep on that path. One day they will understand that growing up is not as..i dunno how the fuck they see it....cool? as it seems. I could never understand why youn girls love the older guys. Its not cause of there maturity, i'll tell u that much. I dunno...this all justbothered me today watching some of the events that occured today with younger girls and guys much to old for them. And sum of the fuckin employees that i work with actually don't give a fuck. One kid i work with was like..."fuck yeah I'd tap that, that girl must be tight." I just looked at him in utter disgust and said get the fuck away from me. Maybe not everyone understands...but of course everyone has there own take on how they veiw the world. I guess some people are trully down to the core...bad. Well, that was my depressed portion of the day...that and wanting so bad for Brenna to come see me. To remind me that there is good in this world...cause thats how i see her. Everything I want in a girl. She has not lost her innocense even tho she has seen what innocense lost looks like. Shes seen the drugs and what they do to peoples lives. And I admire her so much for not giving in.....like i did back when I was in her position. Ya know, with the temptation there...but she never gave in...she stayed strong. And she deserves so much happiness in her life for being simply who she is. And shes always been true to herself. God I love that girl. True, I do belive she still has alot to learn. I mean...after high school...life is so different. Its more of a huge reality check. But atleast shes going through it the right way, shes so smart and I know shes gunna do so well with herself after school. Cause she actually cares about her grades and isnt distracted...like I was. But I dunno, I was just gettin so mad with some of the people at kabooms today that I just wanted to see her...even for a minute. Thats all it takes with her....time stops when I see her. Life is not ugly anymore. I wanted to just walk out of work and find her and just kiss her....cause I can't even describe the feeling when we kiss. Its just blissful. Its also a reminder that life is beautiful. Now I'm alil more upset cause I just read in her journal that she thinks her weekend is gunna suck......how can she say that when shes going to see me tommorow. It hurt me. I just called her but shes prolly asleep now...like I should be...cause I gotta go back to work way early tommorow. But o well. I just hope everything is ok and that were still up for tommorow. Cause I....need to see her again. After talkin about all this I dont really feel like talkin about the good parts of the day so I'll just sum it up. Enjoyed my time with my friends and I loved gettin lost in the music and just skating to it. I was able to squash sum uneeded beef with someone so that was alil weight off my shoulders. Made a new friend, and I always treasure that, cause nowadays it seems like its alil harder than it used to be. I had a nice talk with my friend about sum shit and that cheered me up a bit. But thats all. I guess thats enough, it is gettin a tad late and I wanna be able to wake up in the morning so I can get to work on time. Goodnight to all. And as for the person that replies to my entries that doesnt leave a name. Please tell me who you are. Your words seems so sincere and you seem to see the world as I do. I don't like this whole hidden identity crap. Just please tell me. I have an idea but I don't want to say names and be wrong. Thats all.